Power.

 A 5 letter word that everyone craves of having. A 5 letter word that can lead to a lot of destruction, mentally and physically. If you have the power, what will you do? Does it mean you are wiser if you have the power? Is abusing the power and hurting others as a result the way to do things? Is feeling superior and therefore taking it out on the less “powerful”  when you are upset the way to work things then if you happen to have the power?

Is it right then to stand up against this power if you are right and the power is wrong?

 But what are the consequences you might face then?  

They always say: “Spare the rod and spoil the child.” The rod represents power and authority. But perhaps this rod isn’t right all the time? Perhaps being older doesn’t mean you are wiser always. Perhaps, once in the blue moon, this child in the context isn’t the one at fault. And when the child tries to explain, the rod already strikes. The child therefore gets a taste of the “power” unwillingly and INNOCENTLY. The child is hurt and the rod wouldn’t know. But trust me, I know because I’ve just been there.

Sympathy for the child and break that d*mn rod.

Peace Out. (:

 PS: I disclaim that this is NOT directed to my parents, just in case you think it is. (:
It’s just what I feel after what I’ve experienced today.

Hello everyone.  Firstly, thanks to those who have sent their regards/concern/care etc. Currently, my temperature has stopped fluctuating and subsided. I seriously hope that it’s for good because with a temperature, there’s NO WAY I can get through the school gates. I’m 36.9 for the left ear and 36.8 for the right ear for now. (: That’s a good sign considering I had temperatures as high as 39.3 on Saturday and 38.0-38.6 for the past few days.

And… (I think you wouldn’t believe it too) I actually miss school. Oh my goodness, must have been the fever. I suddenly recall that in JC 1, I used to find all sort of excuses and try badly to fall sick so that I can get an MC and get away from school. I don’t know how I managed to but I always can do it (as in falling sick). I think it was because deep inside me, I mentally “reject” the idea of school. A lot of factors cause that (it doesn’t take an expert to tell) but we shall leave that behind us for now. Coming back…

I ACTUALLY REALLY KIND OF MISS SCHOOL.

 This is amazing. On one hand, I get a chance to rest (and slack a little) BUT on the other, I’m really worried that I will miss a LOT of things in school. Perhaps I’ll go back tomorrow. I should be safe with a mask right?

I’m also extremely pissed and upset because my “Mugging Plan” failed. It was suppose to start on Saturday but died prematurely after I went up to 39.3. To make matters worse, Lyon told me last night when I called her that she was still in school… mugging?!! I felt like I ate ANOTHER bullet after she told me that. ): I felt so strongly that I should be in school today after hearing her words. But Mr Ong called me this morning and asked me how I felt. When I told him I was having cough and runny nose now (chain reaction), he advised me to stay at home for another day and wait till I get better. When can I get back to school then?!! ):

I promised so I will say:

Thank you Virginia for accompanying me to the hawker centre just now.

Since the Common Test officially ended today for me, I guess I should do a post-mortem (or whatever it’s called)

• Biology: I know I have let Ms Tan down. I didn’t study as hard as I promised to. Therefore that somewhat explains my lousy grades. However, I went through the paper and I did improve in certain areas,for example MCQ. I used to fail MCQ but this time round I got 70% for MCQ, so it is to some extent, encouraging. The part I performed badly was essay, so I guess I have to work on that. But actually, I believed it’s because I choose the wrong question. It’s not an excuse, because the average marks for my question is 6 marks and the other is 11 marks. So the conclusion is, the spoiler is the essay.

• Chemistry: I was going to say I’m disappointed but I’ll not. Mr Chua says we don’t lack the raw power, we just lack the right and proper guidance and CONFIDENCE [That's what I interpret from what he said but if it isn't, forgive me ] It’s VERY IMPORTANT that I must go in there and tell myself I will “KILL” the PAPER! Overall, my MCQ wasn’t well done and so was my Section B. I (kind of) improved on my Section C though. In the past, I never passed any questions at all but now, I passed two out of three, so in that sense, I cannot say that I am satisfied but I am glad in one way or another.

• CLL: Paper one was overall fine. Paper Two was the killer for me. I’m thinking of meeting 王老师 to do a analysis of what went wrong with my 茶馆 and 卢老师 to do an analysis for 雪山飞狐. I hope it helps if the consultations do happen. ^^ [Oh yes, I must scan the paper for Kevin. I keep forgetting.]
• General Paper: It wasn’t a great improvement but considering the fact that I thought I might fail (for real, swear I’m not trying to be humble here), I’m a little relief. But I’ll try harder so that a miracle will happen and Ill not disappoint Miss Tan and more importantly, MYSELF.

• Mathematics: It was a surprise for I thought it’d be easier. My grade for Pure Mathematics is C and Stats is B. I guess the thing is that I’ll have to practise more. The comforting thing is by dropping my Maths from H2 to H1, it helped. Something funny happened though when  I got back my paper. I thought that the paper was upon 100, so I was quite depressed because that would mean that I got about the same marks with H2. But it was a blunder because the paper is upon 80 instead.

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That’s all for the post-mortem. I’ll blog again soon. ^^

I’m just wondering when Weilin is going to send me the notes… O.o

Upon SPECIAL REQUEST by Miss Lyon Koh Linlu; Miss Koh is Jasmine’s LUCKY STAR.

Haha. There’s always a reason why people say something.

But I’ll keep this a secret. A secret between us. Haha.

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Special Thanks to Weilin  for lending me his Chemistry notes. Sorry to trouble you and your friend. I’ll treat you the next time we have an UTP Outing. And yes, all the best and let’s hope we’ll all get 4As! Haha. Jiayous! ^^

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Special Thanks to Kelvin for helping me get Biology notes. To be frank, the situation was really awkward just now, but nevertheless, thank you. Haha. No offence though.

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Thank you Junya, Patricia, Xueting and Mr Chua for accomodating with me and my pretty scr*wed up timetable. I’m having tuition on Wednesday! I shall speak less nonsense and 4th dimensional stuff next lesson. I promise. (Haha) 

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Congratulations to Christina and her husband. It’s a BOY! ^^

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I finished my Maths WS for HBL. I’m just left with GP. And I’m procrastinating… :/

I’m a total failure at being GP REP.

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By the way, just showing how “INFLUENCIAL” Kkotboda Namja is (:

• Quote:

Staff Teo Chor Howe to 09y2, 09y1, 09y3, 09y4, 09y5, 09y6, staff  [12:53 PM (11 hours ago) ]

Dear Dunmanians
 
Two weeks have passed and in the frenzy of dealing with the H1N1 situation, this email served as a timely reminder to all on what DHS values as a community, as a family. If you has not been observing what this family has set out and stood for, it is time to take action to correct and address them.
 
I will reiterate the fundamental key principles and aspects as stipulated in the Dunmanian Code of Conduct:

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Hair
Girls with long hair should tie this back neatly. Boys should have short hair that does not touch the ears, and that slopes at the back. Boys should also be clean-shaven. Long hair, “Boys over Flowers” kind of hair style, highlighted hair is undesirable and inappropriate…

Trust me, I was laughing. Not that this is funny; just didn’t realise that it’s so influential that even teachers watch it. Fine, I’m stereotyping. Who says teachers can’t be up for some Korean Drama? They are after all humans too. XD

I think the new timetable is so so so so so -censored- UP! I’m really very absolutely sorry that I have to curse and I understand how much trouble the committee have to go through to get it straight for everyone but some of the time slots are much more totally ridiculous as compared to the old one. Sign~ I used to end early on Mondays but now… and I end on 5:45pm on Fridays. How am I supposed to make it for tuition?! >.<

For some random reason, I decided and went to read up Dorothy’s old blog posts. I specially picked the Novembers and Decembers 2006 and 2007 which we had the UTP experience. Then, I realised something. I miss UTP.  I miss those people I’ve met and the friends I’ve made during the experience. I miss those special moments we had together as a gang playing card games, telling lame jokes, packing books and having fun together. Perhaps in life, there are many memories for you to reminisce. If you don’t, they’ll start to fade away and at the end of the day, you may forget those things you never wanted and meant to forget. Maybe, someday, we should get together. Maybe.

I’m still stuck with Mathematics and GP for Home Based Learning TODAY.

I finished my Biology Notes for TODAY though. I better do my GP. I got a bad feeling about my CTs and I think Miss Tan would be armed with a knife or something on Monday to slaughter me for writing nonsense for my essay. Ouch. Monday the 13th. Not as inauspicious as Firday the 13th but no better. 13th is indeed a bad number. 13th of July, the day of revelation of how bad I’ve done for CTs. I badly want to deny that day. You know there are some places that remove the 4th floor in the buildings and replace it with Floor 3B instead? How I wish I can replace 13th July with something so that it will never arrive. Digressing, in one particular episode of SATC, Carrie and her friends dined in a restaurant named “Denial”. How cynical and ironic is that? O.o

Alright. I’ll blog someday. Soon.

 There’s tuition tomorrow and I’m meeting Kevin to get my Biology notes.

It’s really very nice of him to help me get the notes from his friend. Hee hee.

Oh yes. This is not usually what I’ll do BUT I’m going to promote Nicholas 张栋梁’s NEWEST ALBUM.

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…有谁会在乎

有谁会想念

有谁能看穿我的笑脸…

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-《沉默的瞬间》

I never knew pain could be this excruciating.

好想身心完全麻痹，这样痛对我而言就什么都不是了。

It must be that I have unresolved karmic issues from my previous life…

要不然，今生今世，我为何会接受到这种让我只想不停地哭的痛…

If life is supposed to be full of obstacles,

我困惑，我的前方到底有多少阻碍呢?

Today’s very special day for me. That’s right. It’s my birthday.

No prizes for guessing it right.

Since it’s such a special day, I shall blog about it then. ^^

从前，生日对我而言只是一个快乐，有蛋糕吃，礼物拿的日子。但是，昨天，我想了很多。我也不知为何，可能是潜意识里，我被“逼”着长大。其实，我今年几岁，就代表着多少年前的七月二日，我的妈妈忍着痛，把我生下来。谢谢你，妈妈。虽然我不是每分每秒都活得很快乐，生活上又非是一帆风顺，但还是谢谢你，把我生下，让我能体验人生的酸甜苦辣。

往年，我总写很多生日愿望。但今年我只有两个生日愿望。一、希望我周围的人（家人，朋友等）都身体健康，幸福平安，事事顺利，天天快乐。[当然也包括我自己] 二、希望今年的 A 水准能考到理想的成绩。我会努力的，但愿幸运女神会赐点好运给我。:)

最后，谢谢那些跟我说声“生日快乐”的人。因为有你们的祝福，我更加的幸福。:)

特别谢谢许林露小姐，在昨天一过；今天凌晨12多打电话给我并送上生日歌曲。[虽然我说你很Silly,但是还是很谢谢你。我很感动。]还有，也谢谢你的 blog post. 很感人，害我在 bus 上读差一点哭出来。没想到，一转眼就六年了，我们今年就要毕业了。谢谢你，不论别人说什么，你（和慧琦）总是站在我这边支持着我。不论如何，友谊万岁! 虽然我可能不是最好最坚强的依靠，但是我也想跟你（们）说：“I’ll always be there for you too! Friends FOREVER and ever! ”

也特别谢谢逸贤，送了我一个她自己亲手做的蛋糕。^^ 谢了!

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Okay, I need to go and study. Such a wet blanket right? I don’t really have a choice. 

I’ve already promised to study hard (as above) ^^

It has been sometime since I updated. So I shall. I went to the hospital again. It’s bad. I don’t mean that I’m suffering from anything. I mean my worrying habit. It has worsen. The diagnosis was back spasms. A good $75 to give me that diagnosis. On the bright side, it has also given me comfort; knowing that it wasn’t a big problem. My Mum blames it on me sitting in front of the computer for too long. I think it’s debatable. I would think that it’s more of my body protesting. Protesting that I am slacking. Protesting that I am not carrying out my promise. I slack; and therefore my inner soul starts to become stress because NOTHING is done. When stressed, it protests and I start getting all the cramps/aches/spasms. Boohoo. I must start cracking as soon as the back gets better. Please. I need to get work done.

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 Oh and forgive me, I have to digress. Who says fairytales don’t exists?  I was curiously surfing the net when I read that actor Hiro Mizushima married singer Ayaka. The fairytale is NOT about an actor marrying a singer; it’s rather about him being by her side for a whole year while she battled her illness. He proposed to her on the note that he wanted to take care of her forever. *SWEET* I have changed my stand. Never say TRUE LOVE doesn’t exist. You JUST haven’t met it. Fighting! ^^

After a trip to the market this morning…

I’m trying to study the chemistry notes now so that the Teacher will not skin me tomorrow. :/ Mr. Ong just called my Mum to talk about studying matters. I seriously hope it’s not just me/my Mum who got the phone call. I’ll try to do better this time. I promise. Perhaps I should consider locking up my laptop. Hmmm…Alright. I shall not waste any more of my precious time. Here’s signing off, wishing everyone a wonderful day ahead.

PS: Where are the Biology questions though, Dr. Yap? [I wonder if I can finish them in time... O.o]